Waiting for my Man

performance, Zurich Stadthaus, July 2022

In 2022, there is a popular social media site for anonymous communication. I also asked people to send me anonymous messages. Out of the blue, a lot of people proposed to me. There were five people. Because they were anonymous, I didn't know who they were. I said, "I'll be waiting for you at 10 o'clock in the town hall in Zurich. Then I went for 21 days. Every day I dressed like a bride and waited for my husband. For 21 whole days, no one came to marry me. I gave up. Those men were lying.

I was the available Asian. When I took my initiative and my subjectivity, I became an unwanted object. I was a mail-order bride with no delivery address, a visa-seeker, a failed Swiss project, a city spectacle.